scumbag self

i thought i'd grow numb
i thought i'd be fine
i thought i could just talk it off

turns out, i can't, my heart still ache thinking about it..
my anger still burns every single time i'd reminded about it
and the wound still feels as fresh as if it was stabbed right here right now

im sorry, im really bad at letting go of certain things.. -_-

i take time to heal, but im starting to doubt if it'll even heal
i'd put a plaster to cover it up if i could -_-

i want to heal but i just can't..
can't help it.. shucks..

p/s: i know its CNY and i should be happy and all but i cant help it that these feelings are pouring itself out of me

-Chi Yan-