no choice

so, its thursday today and its friday tomorrow
which is the day i somewhat dread about
its my ecs drama day

my dance failed
i dont want to talk about it but it just failed
so i changed my routine
to a finger tutting dance instead..
which i feel much more comfortable with..

i saw my 'costume' and i have 1 word for it
'seriously?'
im asked to wear a wig, 4 words
'you fucking kidding me?'

man, i hate these stuff so much..
this is just beyond my imaginations
and i just no words to describe what,how, or WHY
i hate these stuff

my friends, my group mates
they must be really really mad at me
for the several attempts to reject the idea of dressing up/making up/etc.
and also for my tantrums and my manifestation of my bad mood
usually when it comes to thing like this, i can just say yolo, do it and just gulp it down

but for this one, i cannot
which is why now im stuck in situation where im not in the mood
and i have to look and be extra happy tomorrow..
so lets be impersonal and be on steroids mode tomorrow :)

so all in all, i gave in,
and i will doing something i absolutely never thought of before tomorrow
but with my conditions..

so meanwhile i'll go practice my new routine..
the show must goes on!
who the hell have time for feelings?
wish us luck peeps :)

-Chi Yan-