Blessed Child :')

yeah... i'm one heck of a blessed child..
in my previous blog post
i asked God to enlighten me.
I really needed some form of help..
something to just..
untie this 'knot'
to set myself free from a problem thats been bugging me for some time

and the moment i finished typing the previous post..
I got what i needed :)

the reason why i only wrote this blog post today
was because it was already really late last night
but yeah, to those who really cared,
thanks for your concern,
because im pretty fine now.

you must be thinking whether i was drunk
or whether i have some personality disorder

one moment my blog post are so sad and emo
that you might think i'd go and kill myself or something

but the next moment im here typing this post
feeling all good and fine..

but yeah..
a friend of mine told me something..
and it just made me think about a lot of things.
and you, my dear friend, you know how you are
thank you for sharing it with me :)
it made me feel better
and realise things that i SHOULD realise a LONG time ago..

i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing
maybe it will good for me bad for her or vice versa
or maybe its better for both of us.. or vice versa (also)

'to let it gain its freedom'

i had remembered you once told me.. something like..
'no one else should be in charge of your own happiness other than yourself'

very wise words..
i'll try to remember that :)

i just hope i will be able to do the right thing at the right time
wish me luck!

-Chi Yan-