uni life.. settled down

its been a looooong time since i've updated my blog..
no energy + no time..
im serious :)
no time to sleep + have to wake up earlyyyyy
i stop at 40 lrt stations per DAY all the way from here to asia jaya
and i still take public buses to campus
so.. about 1 hour trip if my journey is smooth
and 1.5 - 2 hours if it isnt :)
already gotten used to it anyway :)

but here i am now
settled down, survived and still alive! :)
cooled down and done with all my assignments and presentations for semester 1 :)

and in about 2-3 weeks, i will have completed my semester 1 here in UTAR :)
oh how time flies
i didn't even realise it!
i am here for 11 weeks already :)
11 weeks.. about 2 months+??
oh boy have i gone through a lot within this short period of time
it definitely felt like half a year!
and it DEFINITELY felt like half a year just flew past me

well its all because of assignments
hell lot of stress
well yea, blame myself for choosing the wrong people as my groupmates
ended up with a bunch of lazy asses
ended up solo work
sacrificed nights and nights of sleep
oh well, i believe i have complained a lot of facebook hahahaha

but to my friends out there reading this,
a piece of advise,
make MORE friends(especially in your own classes) before the assignments come pouring in!!
then you will more options when it comes to choosing members :)
ALWAYS remember to choose your members wisely
they may be your friends
but when it comes to choosing groupmates..
don't choose friends. choose team players :)
sometimes, these ugly side that you can expect comes out during assignment season
and well, shit happens
and well, you lose friends :/
or at least, thats what happened to me :P

but oh well, its not my fault that she chose to fall in love in week 6/7
and neglect her assignments(which end up affecting me xD)
anyway,
you'll be darn lucky if you can find these team players lurking around somewhere out there..
FIND THEM!!

because i have learned my lessons from my experience with the 2 shitty groups i got
for both my sociology and basic english assignment groups..
they definitely drove me up the CEILING! :O
but yeah all in all..
someone told me..
'if they dont do, you'll still have to do it for them, you dont want to fail right?'
yeah its true... I don't want to fail..
I want to ace this shit >)
so i told myself
'ok. i will do it. but not for them. for me. for myself'
so yeah, in these 11weeks im here..
i have never slept at 11pm
earliest was about 12.30am
latest was 4.40am :)

there were 2 times where i slept at 4am/4.40am
but had to wake up 6.30am the next day and still have presentation on that day itself :)
the feeling is HELL
but i told myself..
'if i can survive this, i will be stronger one day'

but yeah, its definitely not healthy..
i WAS already sleep-deprived
and i slept even later
its dangerous -.-
i lose control over my own actions/words at times

but yeah anyway, thank God!!
i found these 'team players' and asked them to join me for my critical thinking assignment..
trust me, things run so much smoother that way ><

it may be true that in the future world,
real working world,
there are a lot of lazy asses out there
and not everyone is like how i want them to be (team players)
but i really had enough..
my main goal now is to score and learn all these..
not just focus mainly on how to handle these fucktards :/
and i definitely had learn enough for now :/
things are never done/done properly when i ask them to do
so yeah, its either im a fail leader or they are fail team players
i dont think i failed as a leader that bad :/
i still do my part well...but its over now
i've tried my best, i gave it all i had
if they didnt want to try, didnt want to put in effort,
then i cant do anything about it right? haha ^^

perhaps i am not ready to face all these stress yet..
I just want everything to go smoothly for now..

hopefully semester 2 would be better!!
i really have my fingers crossed! D<

after 11 weeks being here,
i have found uni friends that i could count on
good people still DO exist(i think?) :)
but yeah, still gotta be careful
its only been 2 months :)

but yeah, they gave me a reason(s) to smile when i'm feeling down :)
its good to have such people as a friend :)
to be a companion to live a uni life all go through all the shits with you
i definitely found these people
who share the same shitty fate as group leader of a fail group :)
we all know the pain hahahahahaa
supporting each other ALL THE WAY!
its nice :)
im just really glad..
hope nothing goes wrong.. i pray hard :)
if so happen, any of you 4 people decided to stalk me and found this blog of mine
and managed to see this..
just wanna say,
thank you so much for being with me for the past 2 months (which felt like 6 months) :)

oh well, i guess that's all i have to share for now :)
i still have maths test 3 tomorrow!

wish me luck!!!!

Signing Off,
Chi Yan :)