the need to be mature

generally saying,
i do enjoy reading people's blog
whether its a friend's blog or simply a celebrity blogger's blog

sometimes to see whats going on..
to see what they want to share
or simply just reading their piece of mind :)

also while reading..
you get to know a person more
the tone, the choice of words,
the writing style...

its all small details that i try to notice :)
i like that C:

and as a matter of fact
i read my own blog too..

just to see what i write about in the past
and what i write about now..

i hate to admit
but i was a childish a bitch years ago
yes... im still a childish bitch now
but yeah.. its much better now i guess..

well.. i wouldnt say its bias
because sometimes i get confused with who am i myself too x)
i read my own blog in a way that im reading about my own life..

just so you know..
i have my way of writing and its different from anyone else..
because well... im me :)
the blogs i read, each of them has their own style
and their own way of writing too :)

its our way of potraying myself

but guess what...
i kinda think that my post should 'mature' up
i still sound so much like a kid even now
despite how something may be serious

perhaps its the way i organize my blog?

well well.. no point rushing to 'grow up'
let things flow naturally :)
perhaps i can shape myself to a more matured persona when time comes

i dont wanna be a fake person afterall ;)

wellllll.. honestly saying my blog is kinda my most original self in the virtual social networking world..
though there are still things i hide/fake haha
but it is the place that i can express however i want
because i still can control my audience as not many has access to it
 
i dont want and i dont like if any random tom,dick and harry reads these pieces of my mind
but i dont like the idea of locking my blog either..
its making it so... difficult to access?
you know.. having to add emails and having to login and all -_-

i mean.. i still want a healthy flow of readers too kay?
dont need to lock it up or control as if i have anything too top secret to share aite?

because in the end, locking my blog would be too troublesome for you and me isnt it?  

though i tried but thats kinda why i never implement it fully before ;)

be mature? lock my blog?
maybe next time~
people need time for changes eh? ;)

-Chi Yan-