lies

i dont know how can i even emphasise it any further
that i HATE people who lie to me..

i also dont know how i want to emphasise it anymore
that i'm the type of person who'd rather know the truth!

do you rather know the truth, get hurt, and accept it because the other party is being honest
or do you prefer being lied to, finds out the truth, and STILL get hurt from it?

which one hurts more?

i'd rather accept the truth and just face it properly
then being clouded by your lies
and find out the truth and knowing you lied

that hurts even more because i trusted you
and you're just proving me wrong
that i can't in fact trust you..at all??
if you're even lying to me about such petty things
what more of bigger issues?
this is the second time... why do you want to lie about such petty things?

i turned a blind eye for the first one..
do you really think im a fool??

do you know why i even double-checked just to know if you're lying?
because u did it before and i need that reassurance..
and turns out there's more??

just because i dont tell you directly in the face,
doesnt mean i dont know,
doesnt mean i dont care either.
i just want to give you a chance
to 'surrender' or at least feel guilty about it 
and dont do it anymore
but heck...

how the hell i know whether you're lying or telling me truth now

i have yet to know the truth behind the lies..
so before i assume the truth just because i know its a lie..
i shall find out the truth behind on why are you lying to me for such petty things..

p/s: just incase, my beloved occasional blog 'stalkers',
shyuan & wern, this isnt for you. ;)

-Chi Yan-