university..seriously?

ugh..

orientation starts tomorrow
uni starting next week..
and im here wondering
is this what i want?

a friend of mine asked me
'when does your school/uni/college start?'
i answered
'orientation starts this week'
she replied
'how come you dont seem so excited about it?'

honestly,
i really dont know how to answer to that ><

my mum kept encouraging me to take on this course
and well i sorta did
cause it kinda interest me..
kinda makes me excited to learn about it
but then
she kept showing me jobs related to it
like.. those newspaper job section hiring people
then when i see those stuff
i just... i dont know how to put it
she keep asking me:
'you sure this is what you want?'
my answer?
i dont know
looking at the bright side..
i think i should be glad that the answer isnt 'no'
well at least thats one way to look at it..
but what if the answer is really a no? ._.
i..i..i really dont wanna think about that ><

what should i do?
i feel so lost all over again...

and i have to seek that answer myself
because a friend of mine once told me that uni life...
no one is gonna help you solve any problem

feeling so helpless
yet i've got grow the fuck up
heck yea..
am i gonna survive uni life just like how i survived high school??

had a casual chat with my dad just now
he just randomly said:
'just like how you went to saujana last time..
all alone without much friends..
just like how you wanted to go bukit jalil with your friends right?
and still you met lots of new friends in saujana right?
so this is how you should face uni..'

he said that out of nowhere o.o
but i felt better after hearing that o.o
because thats how i survived high school..
but will uni be as easy-peasy as that? ><

i guess i have to find out
and go on this 'adventure' alone yet again!

gotta work it out somehow ><
gotta survive!
wish me luck peeps!

-Chi Yan-