im not lazy

as the title of this post said
IM NOT LAZY TO BLOG!

i just have nothing to blog about

either that or
i have things i want to say but i cant let the whole world know

sometimes its just so hard...

people say life is hard
i agree

but sometimes.. think about this way..
is life hard or the people you meet in life makes them hard?
i say.. people i meet in life make life itself hard
its just not fair..
people tend to take things for granted..
taking advantages of me...
stealing my idea...
taking things for granted..
for the sake of not making an argument..
i had to keep my mouth shut..
you just have no idea how much i want to tell you off..
well, what can i do? suck it all up and move on..
sacrificing for a friend.. sigh

ever had the feeling where you think
everyone on earth dont know you anymore?
sometimes i have that feeling..sad..

when i make an effort to greet people
they ignore me
when i gave up
there they are.. waiting for me

sometimes, i say this to myself when certain people talk to me
i thought i only existed when you need me?

sometimes when im in need,
people arent there for me..
or maybe i just dont see them..
but i cant just go jump off a building
or go cut myself.. or do anything ridiculous

what to do?
hmm.. suck it all up and move on with life
because there isnt something i could do..


there are people who care and dont care about us
and also people who we have to care and also people we have to dont care
so.. we should move on for the people who care about us
and also for people whom we care
why make life hard...

hope you got the message...

fell in love with Paramore's The Only Exception (:

Signing Off,
Chi Yan